Again with the confusion over what story to cover, how much or how little to write, and how to keep this quandary from making me jump from one topic to another and have nothing to show for it.

The topics morph so quickly when I watch the news.  The Supreme Court decision on the Affordable Health Care Act was huge, and I should have jumped in to write about the plan itself and the questions answered by the court.  But I get fascinated by the politics, so I watched in surprise as the headlines turned to the way some conservatives were so dismayed by Chief Justice Roberts' opinion that they turned on him, some even questioning his mental faculties.

So do I want to write reasoned, in depth pieces about national health policy and the law, or do I want to analyze the fallout?

George Zimmerman's audio and video-taped phone calls and interviews are released, and I made my way through long stretches of each one, knowing I could share some observations that weren't being made by anyone who had only watched little snippets being shown on the news.  But then his bond hearing came up and I watched with intensity as his attorney tried an unusual procedure (that didn't work) to try to get Zimmerman's plea to the judge for bond on the record without having to face cross-examination. 

So do I give folks who can't necessarily watch court TV during the day the play-by-play, with all the dramatic details, or do keep slogging through the video tapes, and work out what I think the important elements are?

And I'm still tracking online and on-TV dialogues about the tone of our nation's discourse, and keeping track of where things stand with Voter ID laws.  This kind of a thought-buffet just can't be good for anyone.

On one hand it seems obvious to me that the more important work I have to do is the bigger pieces, the ones that take the leg work and the analysis, and the extra time in composition.  But I have gotten enough feedback to know there are people who like getting the sort of up-to-the-minute blasts I do on facebook and sometimes on here.

Do I want to turn off the TV and go write my book?  Do I want to chuck the book and even the longer articles, and join the fray of partisan daily bloggers? 

And there is also the question of tone - obviously I can be hot-tempered and polemic, but I am also drawn to more careful evaluation and a balanced tone.

I know, maybe I could just keep writing nothing but journal entries about what I should write.

SIGH.

This is all on a tiny scale right now - a couple of hundred hits a day on this site, a couple dozen people who regularly read and respond to my posts on facebook.  But I need to figure it out, because I am getting those couple of hundred hits with virtually no promotion of the site, so I feel sure if I start promoting and tweeting and cross-posting with other bloggers and so forth, I will have enough of an audience to feel like I'm headed down the right road.  So I need to figure out my pace.

Arrrrgh!  Days like this drive me crazy - I'm in the very mind-set that led me to abandon my book and start this website, but sometimes even this forum doesn't help.

I am working on a book about inner-city poverty in the US, with a historical perspective dating back to the Great Migration.  It's enthralling to me, and I WILL get back to it.  The working title is "The Hood", and it looks at the layered patterns and outcomes of what has variously, over time, been referred to the ghetto, the slums, the projects, and of course, the hood.

What started happening a couple of years ago was my inability to stay mute about pressing political issues of the day.  Obama was elected, and he and his supporters brought the explicitly liberal approach to government back into the light.  The backlash, in the form of the Tea Party, was extreme.  I developed a coterie of facebook friends to discuss and debate the heated social and economic issues brewing in the country, but that outlet was so limited, and I was desperate to get down some thoughts and start a dialogue with thinking people.

So I created Maslow's Peak, and it's allowed me to do smaller, more immediate pieces; articles, profiles, and blog posts.  Even little hot-off-the-press updates on the home page.  It's been so gratifying.

And I do still step back sometimes, to calm down, and to remind myself that contention in the country has been happening for years and we will survive.  So I still take time to disappear into my book and gain perspective.

But even when I am feeling energized by current events and ready to take on the fight, there is just so much to look at and respond to that I get scatterbrained and can't figure out what to write about first.  It's nerve-wracking!

Right now I am juggling three topics. 

• My desk is covered with research on the Voting Rights Act of 65, The Help America Vote Act of 2003, and guides to the Voter ID laws in each state. 
  
• My most recent bookmarks are of online resources about civil discourse - speeches, grassroots efforts, and blog posts.  I have a couple of half-written pieces looking at this intensely important topic, and can't figure out which way to go. 
  
• Meanwhile, for several days I have had three tabs open on my computer pertaining to George Zimmerman: the transcript and recording of his 911 call, the video reenactment he did for the detectives the day after the shooting, and the videotapes of the police interviews - there are several hour's worth available now.  I've also opened a google map of the town home community where everything happened - it's all fascinating, and I feel like I am getting at somethings I haven't been able to gather from the news.  But it's time consuming, and meanwhile the world is spinning...

If my usual pattern holds true, I will probably wake up tomorrow fresh and organized, ready to prioritize.  Fingers crossed, and early to bed tonight!

Late morning on a Monday.  For several weeks I've had in mind that I'll reserve Mondays for reading blogs and newspapers, and develop a sense of my focus for the week.  Instead I find myself occupied more with office tasks like phone calls, looking at bills and making appointments.  Maybe that makes the most sense for Mondays, I don't know.  But I gotta keep some hot news in there too - keeping my finger on the pulse of the big political issues in real time is what motivates and energizes me, so I have to figure out how to make my Mondays a balance of doing "infrastructure" work and tuning in to the haps of the day.

My organization and time management are better than they have ever been in my life, but there is always room for improvement.  If I can get myself working like clockwork - or at least like daily planner-work - I will soon be THE QUEEN OF THE WORLD!!!

One thing I do know I'm going to focus on this week is the idea of civil discourse.  I have been mulling it over off and on for over a year, but now may be a good time to start writing more about it.  This political contentiousness is coming to a head, and has to give way to something better soon - I just feel it. We will figure out how to fight fair.